Midnight Thoughts

It doesn't mean that I gave up on you and stop looking for you.
I just want to get used to this pain.
Until I feel nothing at all.
My feelings to you never changed, its still the same.
What changed is I'm forcing my heart to synchronized with my logic.
To take a rest for a while.
Because the truth is, you're too excited getting chased until you forgot to stop.
You don't even realized when I stopped.

I kept on chasing you although I tripped, I fell, I bleed, but you never looked back on me.
You keep on running and running, smiling like nothing is happening.
I feel stupid for hoping that you would care at least a little bit.
Sometimes you slowed down, and it gave me the sensation that I almost grasp you within my arm.
To finally hold you and be the happiest I will ever be.
But then you run again, even faster than before, leaving me behind. Again.

I need to stop.

Because I'm tired. I'm tired of being torn.
For once, I want to know how it feels like
To be wanted. To be cared for. To be loved.
But alas, I am here.
Running for miles just to get the shred of your love.
Then I realized...

I. Need. To stop.

Because just like a butterfly, the more we chased them, the further they may go.
But when we stopped, eventually they will come to us.